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The studio lights were always hotter than anyone remembered to warn you about. After twenty minutes under the rigging, sweat would gather at the base of the skull, threatening the hairspray and the makeup and the carefully calibrated illusion that two people could exist in a constant state of sunlit ease.

JJ was good at it. In fact, he was spectacular. He had a laugh that translated effortlessly through smartphone screens, high-pitched and infectious, the kind that made fans clip three-second audio loops for edits that racked up millions of views by midnight. He knew when to tilt his head, when to bump his shoulder against Net’s, and precisely how long to hold eye contact before rolling his eyes and shoving Net away with a breathless, crowd-pleasing whine.

"Net, stop! The fans are going to think you actually like me!"

The audience at the live fan-meeting had erupted into deafening cheers. Net had simply smiled—that slow, heavy-lidded grin that had become his trademark—and reached out to adjust the collar of JJ’s jacket, fingers deliberately skimming the hollow of JJ’s throat.

It was textbook. It was clean. It was two years of muscle memory built on press junkets, variety shows, and romantic scripts they had memorized until the lines blurred into their dreams.

The problem wasn't the stage. The problem was what happened forty-five minutes later, in the dim backstage green room after the security staff pulled the heavy curtain closed and the roar of five thousand screaming people faded into a dull, thrumming ring in their ears.

JJ was collapsed on the low leather sofa, his long legs stretched out, head tilted back against the wall. The bright, sparkling humor was gone, drained away like water down a sink, leaving behind a boy with dark smudges under his eyes and a quiet, weary slump in his shoulders.

The dressing room was mostly empty; the stylists had already hauled the garment racks down to the vans, and the managers were arguing in the corridor about tomorrow's call time.

Net didn't sit across the room. He never did. He walked over with two paper cups of warm honey-lemon water, kicked JJ’s sneakers gently with the toe of his boot, and waited until JJ opened one exhausted eye.

"Sit up, Radchapon," Net said softly. His stage voice—clear, projecting, coated in honeyed mischief—was replaced by something low and raspy, stripped of theater. "You'll choke if you drink lying down."

JJ sighed, a theatrical groan that didn't quite cover the genuine rasp in his throat, but he pushed himself upright. He took the cup, their fingers brushing around the warm cardboard. Net’s hands were always warm, while JJ’s ran perpetually cold.

"My voice is completely shot," JJ muttered, cradling the cup in both hands. "Whose idea was it to do four choruses of the encore song?"

"Yours," Net said, sitting down right beside him. Not at the opposite end of the couch. Right there, in the pocket of space JJ had left open, his thigh pressing lightly against JJ’s through their denim. "You got excited when you saw the front row holding the matching banners."

"They paid a lot for those tickets," JJ defended himself weakly, blowing on the surface of the tea. "They deserved the extra chorus."

"They did." Net didn't look at the tea. He was looking at the side of JJ’s face, tracing the sharp angle of his jaw, the tiny bead of sweat drying near his temple where the makeup artist had missed. "You worked hard today."

There was no camera. No boom mic hovering overhead. No fans holding up telephoto lenses through cracked doors.

JJ felt the familiar, terrifying prickle of heat under his skin. It was the same sensation that had lived in his ribcage for twenty-four months—a suffocating, desperate awareness that Net’s gravity was real, and that JJ was constantly teetering on the edge of falling into it.

"You worked harder," JJ deflected smoothly, instantly reaching for the armor he wore best. He flashed a quick, crinkled grin, turning his head just enough to break the intensity of Net's gaze. "Carrying me through that interview? P'Jack was practically begging you to shut me up. I thought you were going to clap a hand over my mouth."

"I thought about it," Net replied, entirely unbothered by the deflection. His voice didn't rise to match JJ’s playful cadence. It stayed grounded. "You were rambling because you were nervous about the dance solo."

JJ froze for a fraction of a second, his fingers tightening around the paper cup.

He hated that Net knew. He hated that Net had cataloged every single nervous tic JJ possessed—the way he talked twice as fast when his chest felt tight, the way he picked at his thumbnail when a schedule ran late, the way his shoulders hiked toward his ears when the room got too crowded.

"I wasn't nervous," JJ lied lightly, staring straight ahead at the mirror across from them. "I was caffeinated."

"You drank one iced Americano at noon and didn't touch your lunch," Net said, not an ounce of judgment in his tone, only the maddening, steady weight of observation. "Here."

Net reached into his jacket pocket and pulled out a small foil-wrapped protein bar. It was strawberry-flavored—the only kind JJ actually tolerated without complaining about the chalky texture.

Net held it out.

JJ stared at the small silver rectangle resting on Net’s palm. It was such a stupid, mundane thing. But it had taken Net planning ahead. It meant Net had remembered that JJ had skipped the catering tray three hours ago. It meant that while Net had been getting his hair touched up, while he had been signing promotional posters, he had tucked this into his pocket for later.

It’s just because we’re partners, JJ told himself, a well-worn mantra recited in the dark corners of his mind like a prayer for survival. It’s professional courtesy. If I collapse, the brand deals suffer. If I look sick, the company loses money.

"Thanks," JJ murmured, taking it. He peeled the wrapper slowly, keeping his eyes glued to the task.

"Don't eat it all at once or your stomach will hurt," Net advised quietly, leaning his head back against the cushion, closing his eyes for the first time all day.

With Net’s eyes closed, JJ finally allowed himself to look.

Net Siraphop was undeniably striking. The industry treated him like a prince because he carried himself like one—steady, self-assured, never flustered by sudden schedule changes or demanding directors. But in private, when the sharp lines of his face relaxed, there was a vulnerability that JJ found impossible to look at without feeling his chest ache.

For two years, they had lived inside a bubble of their own making. To the public, they were the perfect pair—flirtatious, tactile, full of secret glances that drove social media into frenzies. The fans debated endlessly about whether they were real.

JJ knew the truth, and the truth was far more exhausting: it wasn't fake, but it wasn't allowed to be real, either.

JJ had built an impenetrable fortress around himself. He had seen what happened to pairings that crossed the line—the messy breakups, the awkward press conferences, the sudden coldness when contracts ended and reality set in. But worse than that was the paralyzing fear that Net’s affection was simply an extension of his work ethic. Net was a perfectionist. Net gave one hundred and ten percent to everything he touched. What if this closeness, this care, this warmth that felt like home was nothing more than Net being the best scene partner in the country?

JJ couldn't risk asking. If he asked, and Net laughed and said, Of course I care about you, JJ, you’re my best friend, JJ knew he would shatter into pieces he could never glue back together.

So he suppressed it. He laughed off the lingering touches. He turned every loaded silence into a joke. When Net’s gaze lingered on his lips for half a second too long during a workshop, JJ would make a goofy face until Net groaned and looked away. He kept them safe. He kept them in the realm of "almost."

What JJ didn't understand was that Net had never agreed to the rules of JJ’s fortress.

Net didn't open his eyes, but his hand moved across the short distance between them on the couch, his fingers lightly brushing the fabric of JJ’s sleeve before settling over JJ’s wrist. His thumb rested against JJ’s pulse point, steady and warm.

JJ’s breath hitched in his throat.

"You're thinking too loud," Net murmured, eyes still shut, a faint, knowing curve touching the corner of his lips.

"I'm literally just chewing," JJ retorted, though his voice lacked any real bite. He didn't pull his arm away. He never had the strength to pull away.

"You have a specific face you make when you're trying to figure out an exit strategy," Net said. He finally opened his eyes, dark and entirely too focused, turning his head on the couch so they were looking directly at one another.

There were barely four inches between their faces. The air smelled of hair product, cooling lemon tea, and Net’s cologne—something woody and sharp that JJ could pick out in an airport terminal blindfolded.

"I don't need an exit strategy," JJ said, swallowing hard. The strawberry bar felt like dust in his mouth. "We’re going to the parking lot in ten minutes anyway."

"Are we?" Net asked.

The question hung in the air, heavy and deliberate. Net didn't shift away. He didn't blink. He just held JJ’s gaze with that patient, unnerving stillness that had begun showing up more and more over the past few months.

Net had stopped playing by the unspoken contract.

In the first year, they had maintained the safety buffer. When the cameras cut, they would take a breath, chat casually with the crew, and give each other space. But lately, Net had been closing the gap. He would "accidentally" leave his backpack in JJ’s van, forcing them to ride together. He would subtly shift his body during press scrums so that any reporter trying to lean in too close to JJ had to step around Net first. When JJ looked overwhelmed at after-parties, Net didn't ask if he wanted to leave; he simply stood up, caught JJ’s eye, and walked toward the exit, knowing JJ would follow.

It wasn't aggressive. It was steady, methodical pressure. Net was testing the ice, inch by inch, waiting to see how much weight it could hold.

"What is that supposed to mean?" JJ asked, trying to sound breezy, though his heartbeat was hammering against Net’s thumb on his wrist. "P'Korn said the van is taking you to your condo first and then dropping me off in Thong Lo."

The dressing room door creaked open, breaking the spell. Korn, their head manager, poked his head in, scrolling furiously on an iPad.

"Five minutes, boys. Grab your bags. The basement crowd has been cleared, so we can slip out without security making a fuss."

"Got it, Phi," Net answered, without breaking eye contact with JJ.

Korn let the door swing shut again.

The sudden burst of reality should have shattered the moment, but Net didn't move his hand. If anything, his fingers tightened just slightly, anchoring JJ in place.

"JJ," Net said.

The sound of his name in that tone—quiet, serious, entirely devoid of the teasing cadence Net used in front of the world—sent a shiver straight down JJ’s spine.

"Yeah?" JJ whispered, his throat suddenly tight.

Net looked at him for a long, quiet moment, his dark eyes carrying an intensity that felt dangerous, like a secret that had spent two years locked in a drawer and was finally rattling the wood to get out. Net didn't look like an actor right now. He looked like a man who had decided he was done waiting for permission.

"Come stay at my place tonight," Net said.